Well, we all do believe that reality sucks, if not all the time maybe sometime, just sometime. And so we keep telling ourselves or keep ourselves busy just to make sure that the reality won't kick in. Life is uncertain, unexpected and that is what life is. Reality is just a part of life where the other part is imagination. At times when reality tries to invade and dictate life, man will try to put imagination in charge. however, we do not own our own body, it is just a game of mind and they control everything.
What is given to me is a life, a straight-forwarded life, a guided life lead by God (Allah) and Prophet (Muhammad) and the environment.
I always keep thinking that my life was all set-up by my father or my mother, set me up on this path which I don't even know at first. But they did guide me I think. But as i said, life is what life is.
Though guidance was given to you all the way until you realize where you are, then those are the reality. So at that point where you stand, when reality kicks in hard and two consequences might come to your mind; reality sucks, reality is acceptable. A soul near by God (Allah) would have the latter most in their mind but a soul vice versa would have the former. So i guess we all know where I stand now, are not we?
Reality: I am now studying, or sadly I would prefer to use the word 'struggling', in this field which I haven't fully fall in love with, well perhaps yet.
Imagination: I am studying happily in the field that I have fallen in love with, without breaking sweats.
Reality: I am now living, or would prefer to use the term suffering, in Kelantan, 513 kilometers away from home.
Imagination: I am living in Kuala Lumpur, 57 kilometers away from home.
Reality: I decided to come here along with my heart wish, against my parents will against my guidance.
Imagination: I decided to stay there against my heart wish, along with my parents will along with my guidance.
Reality: I don't really have much friends. I am a wallflower.
Imagination: I have friends, true friends and I am so happy living that I don't want to die.
Reality: I cannot turn back the time.
Imagination: I can start over again.
You see, at this point I have so many arguments but I am least aware about the meaning of life given by God (Allah). Yet again, life is unpredictable. I am not so sure of my future in this path yet I contemplate everything. At time such this all I need to find is God (Allah). May I found Him and let He guide me through not just at this time but until eternity.