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Thursday, March 17, 2016
I can still hear those words in an angry tone of voice ringing in my ear. I was hurt, shamed, felt guilty and embarrassed all at the same instant moment.
And I just said,
"Lah, I tak tau pulak dia tak boleh tolerate orally", I turned sad.
"Kalau dah muntah banyak kali after everytime makan minum tu, tak boleh tolerate orally lah", still in the same tone.
I was really sad. At that time I didn't know that nil by mouth should be put to him as he couldn't tolerate orally. So I felt like the stupidest person on earth, and I shouldn't be around Scott anymore, cause I couldn't take care of him.
But now I realized, and I've learnt that, if at that time he could not tolerate orally and should be kept nil by mouth, then how do we treat dehydration? He was not in the ward or emergency, he was in his room! So just let him lie there on his bed, prolonging his dehydration? Why no intravenous dehydration was given to him as he could not tolerate orally, and was discharged with ORS just like that from the emergency?
So I thought, in my defense, the doctor who discharged him must believe that he could tolerate orally, that's why the doctor discharged him from the emergency with ORS without prior intravenous dehydration.
And that's why in his room, I tried to give him water to drink because he was very ill-looking. But he vomited after that. And that bitch was mad at me for doing that to Scott. Bajet Pandai.
And secondly, the thing that I am not able to forget, let go from my mind, is the time during we were in the same committee organizing Graduation Ceremony for medical graduating class of 2015. during post-mortem i can still remember of how embarrassed i felt. He said that my team sent out invitations late to the lecturers, and I didn't invite the Ketua-Ketua Unit that I should (I didn't invite because he was the one who said not to in the first place, I can fucking remember that, and we i defended myself about it during the post-mortem, he denied. How fucking mental is he?), and I said I didn't properly arrange the VIP seats on the stage. I swallowed all that at that time. But now I'm vomiting it all out, for my defense.
Firstly, since when typing, printing and sending out invitation letters become the task for Protocol Team? Isn't the task for the secretary? so the secretary, as i may recall, she did the paperwork and submit to the admins, and writing up report. I mean, seriously, she obviously got more merits than I do, so, she obviously needs to do more task than me. Paperwork and report only? Whatever.
Secondly, what's the use of AJK Pendaftaran if they just sat there at the registration counter, waiting for people or invitees to come and sign up their names on the day of event. And they got the same amount of merits as what my team got, but we did more work, and we got bashed some more during post mortem. Problem is, they just handled graduates, when they should handled the VIPs and the lecturers too, because they are indeed AJK Pendaftaran. Prior to event, none of them requested from me the list of lecturers and VIPs who responded Yes. They just expected me to bring me the list on the day of event, when exactly from the beginning, they are the ones who should do all the invitations and RSVP for the VIPs and lecturers too, not just the graduates.
We are the ones who needed to finalised the award giving run flow, and put it into MC text, when actually we just need to request from AJK Hadiah for the namelist because they were the ones who should do that. We are the ones who ended up, do the invitations, follow-up for RSVPs, welcoming and escorting the VIPs to appropriate room for waiting, when AJK Pendaftaran and Sambutan are the ones who should do that.
And we have our own works too, mind you. We need to arranged the seats of the VIPs on stage, the seats of graduates, lecturers, parents, invitees on the floor, basically plan the floor, and we did. We also need to ensure that the speech text has been written, repaired and approved by the Admin Public Relation Officer, and we did. We need to revise the run flow, and rehearse, and we did. Briefing the VIPs about the run flow, arranging them into entrance lines and formations. We need to keep the formation of graduates during award session flowing in the right manner. It may or may not seem a lot, but if every other team do their own job well, our burden will become less, and become equal to each other.
Sometimes I ask myself, Why does most of the pre-event task mostly included in our job scope? I can't digest that until now. Hey you, just because you're the protocol team leader during last event, and maybe you did all those task, doesn't mean that it has to be repeated again for this time. In my perspective, somehow you wanna show off that you did all the works last time and all the credits in the world for the success of last event ought to be given to you.
That time you became the president and i was in protocol team, succeeding you, I think you failed to delegate the tasks fairly towards every other teams. So, the way you bashed me and my team during the post-mortem like we were failures, I put it back all on you bitch. You are the cause of failure. you blamed it all badly on us while actually the event was not even a failure, it turned out there was little small problems, but from the feedback from attendees it was good though. So why the need to bash? I think you just wanna humiliate me for not doing what you did last time. Huhh, as if you're always excellent. Fuck you.
And now, I sympathize you, because you don't have money, JPA has been cut off from your funding. I sympathize when you and your pretty boyfriend got into troubles, the car accident, the ride back from debate in Penang, the time when your boyfriend got sick. I sympathize you, but dunno why i do that after all you did.
Sunday, April 27, 2014
hello too, keyboard warriors!
Monday, March 31, 2014
Perkara (10) Tujuan dan fungsi MPP ialah untuk:
1. Memupuk semangat hidup sebagai suatu perbadanan di kalangan pelajar Universiti;
2. Tertakluk kepada arahan Naib Canselor, menyusun dan menyelia kemudahan kebajikan pelajar di Universiti termasuk kemudahan rekreasi, aktiviti kerohanian dan keagamaan, dan pembekalan makanan dan minuman;
3. Membuat rayuan kepada Naib Canselor mengenai segala perkara yang berhubungan dengan atau berkenaan dengan keadaan hidup dan kerja pelajar Universiti;
4. Diwakili dalam mana-mana badan yang boleh, mengikut sesuatu Kaedah yang dibuat oleh Lembaga bagi maksud itu, dilantik untuk menjalankan aktiviti kebajikan pelajar di Universiti; dan
5. Menjalankan apa-apa aktiviti lain sebagaimana yang ditetapkan oleh Lembaga dari semasa ke semasa.
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
More or less the topic is about what you see and what you dont.
This is my first time blogging since I've started to post in MPP. So many things have happened in my life since the pelantikan. So many feelings mixture I've been true. And please be reminded that by that I do not mean to be proud or brag about it. Oh I just negatively overthink about my readers didn'nt I?
Anyway, I've received some motivations from my friends lately. One from Nina, one from Suffia, one from Abg and one from my predecessor (haha) former MPP Chai. There are all concern about me and I love them more because of that.
The other day I had a talk with Chai and one of the things that I can remember from the conversation is that I have to write down everything that I experienced or felt or whatever straight away after interesting things happened. So now, people, let me warn you that I will blog everything. Haha.
And the other thing that I remember is that now is a good practice for me to be a good leader. Consider whatever happens at this period to be my exercise and test to a better future. Tho not exactly like that what he said, but thats how I perceived it. Not bad for a motivation right?
And Nina reminded me to let no people bring me down. I will. I will stay put Nina. I don't even know how did she knew that I'm quite down at that time. Suddenly one day she texted me a motivational quote and I was touched. Thank you Nina :) yeah, to think about it, just recently some people did let me down. How come can you tell me that I didn't propose any follow up when my resources to do that is the meeting minute, the one you should provide? But right now I refuse to elaborate more on that particular story. One because I have more stories actually that I can write down about people downing me so it will consume my time. Two because if write them down, there is a probability that I'll feel down. So I stop here for that now.
And Suffia has always been a good girl. She understands me tho sometimes, many times i forgot to text her. Thank you so much :')
And Abg is this one person where actually you can count to comfort you. He lives far from me au currant. I'm sure if he'a here I'll make his life a mess. Haha. With my complaints and silly things I always worry about. How I wish you are/were (grammar) here.
That's all for now. I love you all. Bye ;)
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Hello hi assalamualaikum. So these last few days i have been in a certain stupid dilemma about being in a post. People said that this post is an important post in a campus. Some people try to support me but not for the other some. Now i dont know which one is the truth. In fact nobody knows the truth because the truth is a future which we dont know yet until it happens. Of course we can predict things but who knows our prediction might or might not come true. My academic will be at risk. My job and my students welfare cant be done well as i have to focus on my study. So it will burden others. All the comments circulate around these 3 points. Although i have rebuttals for all of these 3 points but still i cannot say them out loud because like i said they may or may not come true. Who knows except Allah. So now, im praying to you Allah. That you shed me your light in my heart towards the path that i've decided to go on. And let there be success and only success in the future for me, my friends and my campus O Allah.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
I don't know why I used to cry everyday when my dad was about to leave our house for work. I used to cry badly, loudly and maybe annoyingly (my mum must really hated my cries at that time) each and every time he goes out to work. Maybe it's because that my dad workplace was so far away in Pahang and he usually took 2-3 days as the nature of his job as a teamwork consultant consumes days of camp training.
Before our family moved to our new house in the 'countryside', I used to have a neighbour, of an uncle, aunty, a daughter and a very little son. Now, the same thing happened to me when I was at that age, I saw it in front of my own eyes. The little boy cries everytime his father goes out probably for work. So I thought, maybe this thing happens to many other children in this world, maybe from other parts of the world, other continents etc.
This occurrence made me think, why do children cry when their father, or probably, mother too, leave them? And why don't we, or the children continue to cry even as they grow up?
Now that is certainly something to think about. But we all know that the baseline or the bottom rock of the thoughts or the arguments will circle about loving our family :D
P/s: I'll be happy to read back your thoughts <3
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